Hate my mother

Alright, so... just the other day my mother finds out that I was cutting myself.

So, what does she do now?  She keeps telling me I'm doing things wrong, that I need to drop down to academic... etc....

UGH!  She is so rude.  She always complains that I don't represent her properly.  I am representing myself.  Ok?  MYSELF.  Not you.  No one sees me say "Doesn't each child need their own emergency contact?  My mother will be mine..." and think that YOU are selfish and unwilling to protect other people.  GOSH!

This makes me want to cry.  It makes me want to throw up.  It makes me want to hurt myself again.

Mother, if you wanted to help me- this is the wrong way to go about it.

I am tired of feeling like a failure.  I am tired of never being good enough for you.

I am sorry I can't live up to your standards.  I am sorry I do everything wrong.