Like yesterday. Yesterday I am trying to comfort him, I'm being a little silly...and I grab his foot because he is trying to run away. You know that tendon-thing at the back of the ankle? I was squeezing his, and he told me it was like someone was trying to turn him on in a really weird way. Well, I wasn't trying to turn him on, so I stopped. And he looked me in the face and told me he wasn't sexually attracted to me.
Well! There is a blow to the gut!
Honestly, I don't think that there are any guys who are sexually attracted to me... I need to calm down and be a little bit more "sexy" and less "cute"... because I WANT guys to find me sexually attractive.
But geeze. Here is a boy who tells me I am gorgeous, beautiful, and pretty (he even called me sexy once)... here is the boy that has known the most about me than anyone before and guess what: he doesn't find me sexually attractive!
Well, that sure makes me feel good. It would appear that even when I let guys know my personality they still do not want me.
I think I hate myself.
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